Twilight - Midnight Sun - Chapter 12 Complications

Bella and I walked silently to biology. I was trying to focus myself on the moment, on the girl beside me,
on what was real and solid, on anything that would keep Alice's deceitful, meaningless visions out of my
head.

We passed Angela Weber, lingering on the sidewalk, discussing an assignment with a boy from her
Trigonometry class. I scanned her thoughts perfunctorily, expecting more disappointment, only to be
surprised by their wistful tenor.

Ah, so there was something Angela wanted. Unfortunately, it wasn't something that could be easily gift wrapped.
I felt strangely comforted for a moment, hearing Angela's hopeless yearning. A sense of kinship that
Angela would never know about passed through me, and I was, in that second, at one with the kind
human girl.

It was oddly consoling to know that I wasn't the only one living out a tragic love story. Heartbreak was
everywhere.

In the next second, I was abruptly and thoroughly irritated. Because Angela's story didn't have to be
tragic. She was human and he was human and the difference that seemed so insurmountable in her
head was ridiculous, truly ridiculous compared to my own situation. There was no point in her broken
heart. What a wasteful sadness, when there was no valid reason for her not to be with the one she
wanted. Why shouldn't she have what she wanted? Why shouldn't this one story have a happy ending?

I wanted to give her a gift... Well, I would give her what she wanted. Knowing what I did of human
nature, it probably wouldn't even be very difficult. I sifted through the consciousness of the boy beside
her, the object of her affections, and he did not seem unwilling, he was just stymied by the same
difficulty she was. Hopeless and resigned, the way she was.

All I would have to do was plant the suggestion...

The plan formed easily, the script wrote itself without effort on my part. I would need Emmett's helpgetting
him to go along with this was the only real difficulty.

Human nature was so much easier to manipulate than vampire nature. I was pleased with my solution,
with my gift for Angela. It was a nice diversion from my own problems. Would that mine were as easily
fixed.

My mood was slightly improved as Bella and I took our seats. Maybe I should be more positive. Maybe
there was some solution out there for us that was escaping me, the way Angela's obvious solution was
so invisible to her. Not likely... But why waste time with hopelessness? I didn't have time to waste when
it came to Bella. Each second mattered.

Mr. Banner entered pulling an ancient TV and VCR. He was skipping through a section he wasn't
particularly interested in-genetic disorders-by showing a movie for the next three days. Lorenzo's Oil
was not a very cheerful piece, but that didn't stop the excitement in the room. No notes, no test-able
material. Three free days. The humans exulted.

It didn't matter to me, either way. I hadn't been planning on paying any attention to anything but Bella.
I did not pull my chair away from hers today, to give myself space to breathe.

Instead, I sat close beside her like any normal human would. Closer than we sat inside my car, close
enough that the left side of my body felt submerged in the heat from her skin.

It was a strange experience, both enjoyable and nerve-racking, but I preferred this to sitting across the
table from her. It was more than I was used to, and yet I quickly realized that it was not enough. I was
not satisfied. Being this close to her only made me want to be closer still. The pull was stronger the
closer I got.

I had accused her of being a magnet for danger. Right now, it felt like that was the literal truth. I was
danger, and, with every inch I allowed myself nearer to her, her attraction grew in force.

And then Mr. Banner turned the lights out.

It was odd how much of a difference this made, considering that the lack of light meant little to my eyes.

I could still see just as perfectly as before. Every detail of the room was clear.
So why the sudden shock of electricity in the air, in this dark that was not dark to me? Was it because I
knew that I was the only one who could see clearly? That both Bella and I were invisible to the others?

Like we were alone, just the two of us, hidden in the dark room, sitting so close beside one another...

My hand moved toward her without my permission. Just to touch her hand, to hold it in the darkness.

Would that be such a horrific mistake? If my skin bothered her, she only had to pull away...

I yanked my hand back, folded my arms tightly across my chest and clenched my hands closed. No
mistakes. I'd promised myself that I would make no mistakes, no matter how minimal they seemed. If I
held her hand, I would only want more-another insignificant touch, another move closer to her. I could
feel that. A new kind of desire was growing in me, working to override my self-control.

No mistakes.

Bella folded her arms securely across her own chest, and her hands balled up into fists, just like mine.
What are you thinking? I was dying to whisper the words to her, but the room was too quiet to get away
with even a whispered conversation.

The movie began, lightening the darkness just a bit. Bella glanced up at me. She noted the rigid way I
held my body-just like hers-and smiled. Her lips parted slightly, and her eyes seemed full of warm
invitations.

Or perhaps I was seeing what I wanted to see.
I smiled back; her breathing caught with a low gasp and she looked quickly away.

That made it worse. I didn't know her thoughts, but I was suddenly positive that I had been right before,
and that she wanted me to touch her. She felt this dangerous desire just as I did.
Between her body and mine, the electricity hummed.

She didn't move all through the hour, holding her stiff, controlled pose as I held mine. Occasionally she
would peek at me again, and the humming current would jolt through me with a sudden shock.
The hour passed-slowly, and yet not slowly enough. This was so new, I could have sat like this with her
for days, just to experience the feeling fully.

I had a dozen different arguments with myself while the minutes passed, rationality struggling with
desire as I tried to justify touching her.

Finally, Mr. Banner turned the lights on again.

In the bright fluorescent light, the atmosphere of the room returned to normal. Bella sighed and
stretched, flexing her fingers in front of her. It must have been uncomfortable for her to hold that
position for so long. It was easier for me-stillness came naturally.

I chuckled at the relieved expression on her face. "Well, that was interesting."

"Umm," she murmured, clearly understanding what I referred to, but making no comment. What I
wouldn't give to hear what she was thinking right now.

I sighed. No amount of wishing was going to help with that. "Shall we?" I asked, standing.
She made a face and got unsteadily to her feet, her hands splayed out as if she were afraid she was
going to fall.

I could offer her my hand. Or I could place that hand underneath her elbow-just lightly-and steady her.
Surely that wouldn't be such a horrible infraction...

No mistakes.

She was very quiet as we walked toward the gym. The crease was in evidence between her eyes, a sign
that she was deep in thought. I, too, was thinking deeply.

One touch of her skin wouldn't hurt her, my selfish side contended.

I could easily moderate the pressure of my hand. It wasn't exactly difficult, as long as I was firmly in
control of myself. My tactile sense was better developed than a human's; I could juggle a dozen crystal
goblets without breaking any of them; I could stroke a soap bubble without popping it. As long as I was
firmly in control...

Bella was like a soap bubble-fragile and ephemeral. Temporary.

How long would I be able to justify my presence in her life? How much time did I have? Would I have
another chance like this chance, like this moment, like this second?

She would not always be within my arm's reach...

Bella turned to face me at the gym's door, and her eyes widened at the expression on my face. She
didn't speak. I looked at myself in the reflection of her eyes and saw the conflict raging in my own. I
watched my face change as my better side lost the argument.
My hand lifted without a conscious command for it to do so. As gently as if she were made of the
thinnest glass, as if she were fragile as a bubble, my fingers stroked the warm skin that covered her
cheekbone. It heated under my touch, and I could feel the pulse of blood speed beneath her transparent
skin.

Enough, I ordered, though my hand was aching to shape itself to the side of her face. Enough .

It was difficult to pull my hand back, to stop myself from moving closer to her than I already was. A
thousand different possibilities ran through my mind in an instant-a thousand different ways to touch
her. The tip of my finger tracing the shape of her lips. My palm cupping under her chin. Pulling the clip
from her hair and letting it spill out across my hand. My arms winding around her waist, holding her
against the length of my body.
Enough.

I forced myself to turn, to move away from her. My body moved stiffly-unwilling. I let my mind linger
behind to watch her as I walked swiftly away, almost running from the temptation. I caught Mike
Newton's thoughts-they were the loudest-while he watched Bella walk past him in oblivion, her eyes
unfocused and her cheeks red. He glowered and suddenly my name was mingled with curses in his head;

I couldn't help grinning slightly in response.

My hand was tingling. I flexed it and then curled it into a fist, but it continued to sting painlessly.
No, I hadn't hurt her-but touching her had still been a mistake.
It felt like fire-like the thirsting burn of my throat had spread throughout my entire body.
The next time I was close to her, would I be able to stop myself from touching her again? And if I
touched her once, would I be able to stop at that?

No more mistakes. That was it. Savor the memory, Edward, I told myself grimly, and keep your hands to
yourself. That, or I would have to force myself to leave...somehow. Because I couldn't allow myself near
her if I insisted on making errors.

I took a deep breath and tried to steady my thoughts.

Emmett caught up to me outside the English building.

"Hey, Edward." He's looking better. Weird, but better. Happy.

"Hey, Em." Did I look happy? I supposed, despite the chaos in my head, I felt that way.

Way to keep your mouth shut, kid. Rosalie wants to rip your tongue out.

I sighed. "Sorry I left you to deal with that. Are you angry with me?"

"Naw. Rose'll get over it. It was bound to happen anyway." With what Alice sees coming...

Alice's visions were not what I wanted to think about right now. I stared forward, my teeth locking
together.

As I searched for a distraction, I caught sight of Ben Cheney entering the Spanish room ahead of us. Ahhere
was my chance to give Angela Weber her gift.

I stopped walking and caught Emmett's arm. "Hold on a second."

What's up?

"I know I don't deserve it, but would you do me a favor anyway?"

"What is it?" he asked, curious.

Under my breath-and at a speed that would have made the words incomprehensible to a human no
matter how loud they'd been spoken-I explained to him what I wanted.

He stared at me blankly when I was done, his thoughts as blank as his face.

"So?" I prompted. "Will you help me do it?"

It took him a minute to respond. "But, why?"

"C'mon, Emmett. Why not?"

Who are you and what have you done with my brother?

"Aren't you the one who complains that school is always the same? This is something a little different,
isn't it? Consider it an experiment-an experiment in human nature."

He stared at me for another moment before he caved. "Well, it is different, I'll give you that... Okay,
fine." Emmett snorted and then shrugged. "I'll help you."

I grinned at him, feeling more enthusiastic about my plan now that he was on board. Rosalie was a pain,
but I would always owe her one for choosing Emmett; no one had a better brother than mine.
Emmett didn't need to practice. I whispered his lines to him once under my breath as we walked into
the classroom.

Ben was already in his seat behind mine, assembling his homework to hand in. Emmett and I both sat
and did the same thing. The classroom was not quiet yet; the murmur of subdued conversation would
continue until Mrs. Goff called for attention.

She was in no hurry, appraising the quizzes from the last class.

"So," Emmett said, his voice louder than necessary-if he were really speaking only to me. "Did you ask

Angela Weber out yet?"
The sound of papers rustling behind me came to an abrupt stop as Ben froze, his attention suddenly
riveted on our conversation.

Angela? They're talking about Angela?

Good. I had his interest.

"No," I said, shaking my head slowly to appear regretful.

"Why not?" Emmett improvised. "Are you chicken?"

I grimaced at him. "No. I heard that she was interested in someone else."

Edward Cullen was going to ask Angela out? But... No. I don't like that. I don't want him near her.

He's...not right for her. Not...safe.

I hadn't anticipated the chivalry, the protective instinct. I'd been working for jealousy. But whatever
worked.

"You're going to let that stop you?" Emmett asked scornfully, improvising again. "Not up for the
competition?"

I glared at him, but made used of what he gave me. "Look, I guess she really likes this Ben person. I'm
not going to try to convince her otherwise. There are other girls."

The reaction in the chair behind me was electric.

"Who?" Emmett asked, back to the script.

"My lab partner said it was some kid named Cheney. I'm not sure I know who he is."

I bit back my smile. Only the haughty Cullens could get away with pretending not to know every student
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Ben's head was whirling with shock. Me? Over Edward Cullen? But why would she like me?
"Edward," Emmett muttered in a lower tone, rolling his eyes toward the boy. "He's right behind you," he
mouthed, so obviously that the human could easily read the words.

"Oh," I muttered back.

I turned in my seat and glanced once at the boy behind me. For a second, the black eyes behind the
glasses were frightened, but then he stiffened and squared his narrow shoulders, affronted by my
clearly disparaging evaluation. His chin shot out and an angry flush darkened his golden-brown skin.

"Huh," I said arrogantly as I turned back to Emmett.

He thinks he's better than me. But Angela doesn't. I'll show him...

Perfect.

"Didn't you say she was taking Yorkie to the dance, though?" Emmett asked, snorting as he said the
name of the boy that many scorned for his awkwardness.


"That was a group decision apparently." I wanted to be sure that Ben was clear on this. "Angela's shy. If
B-well, if a guy doesn't have the nerve to ask her out, she'd never ask him."

"You like shy girls," Emmett said, back to improvisation. Quiet girls. Girls like...hmm, I don't know.

Maybe Bella Swan?

I grinned at him. "Exactly." Then I returned to the performance. "Maybe Angela will get tired of waiting.
Maybe I'll ask her to the prom."

No, you won't, Ben thought, straightening up in his chair. So what if she's so much taller than me? If she
doesn't care, then neither do I. She's the nicest, smartest, prettiest girl in this school... and she wants
me.

I liked this Ben. He seemed bright and well-meaning. Maybe even worthy of a girl like Angela.

I gave Emmett a thumbs up under the desk as Mrs. Goff stood and greeted the class.

Okay, I'll admit it-that was sort of fun, Emmett thought.

I smiled to myself, pleased that I'd been able to shape one love story's happy ending. I was positive that
Ben would follow through, and Angela would receive my anonymous gift. My debt was repaid.

How silly humans were, to let a six inch height differential confound their happiness.

My success put me in a good mood. I smiled again as I settled into my chair and prepared to be
entertained. After all, as Bella had pointed out at lunch, I'd never seen her in action in her gym class
before.

Mike's thoughts were the easiest to pinpoint in the babble of voices that swarmed through the gym. His
mind had gotten far too familiar over the last few weeks. With a sigh, I resigned myself to listening
through him. At least I could be sure that he would be paying attention to Bella.

I was just in time to hear him offer to be her badminton partner; as he made the suggestion, other
partnerings ran through his mind. My smile faded, my teeth clenched together, and I had to remind
myself that murdering Mike Newton was not a permissible option.

"Thanks, Mike-you don't have to do this, you know."

"Don't worry, I'll keep out of your way."

They grinned at each other, and flashes of numerous accidents-always in some way connected to Bellaflashed
through Mike's head.

Mike played alone at first, while Bella hesitated on the back half of the court, holding her racket
gingerly, as if it was some kind of weapon. Then Coach Clapp ambled by and ordered Mike to let Bella
play.

Uh oh, Mike thought as Bella moved forward with a sigh, holding her racquet at an awkward angle.

Jennifer Ford served the birdie directly toward Bella with a smug twist to her thoughts. Mike saw Bella
lurch toward it, swinging the racket yards wide of her target, and he rushed in to try to save the volley.

I watched the trajectory of Bella's racquet with alarm. Sure enough, it hit the taut net and sprung back
at her, clipping her forehead before it spun out to strike Mike's arm with a resounding thwack.

Ow. Ow. Ungh. That's going to leave a bruise.

Bella was kneading her forehead. It was hard to stay in my seat where I belonged, knowing she was hurt.
But what could I do, if I were there? And it didn't seem to be serious... I hesitated, watching. If she
intended to continue to try to play, I was going to have to manufacture an excuse to pull her out of class.

The coach laughed. "Sorry, Newton." That girl's the worst jinx I've ever seen. Shouldn't inflict her on the
others...

He turned his back deliberately and moved to watch another game so that Bella could return to her
former spectator's role.

Ow, Mike thought again, massaging his arm. He turned to Bella. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, are you?" she asked sheepishly, blushing.

"I think I'll make it." Don't want to sound like a crybaby. But, man, that hurts!

Mike swung his arm in a circle, wincing.

"I'll just stay back here," Bella said, embarrassment and chagrin on her face rather than pain. Maybe

Mike had got the worst of it. I certainly hoped that was the case. At least she wasn't playing anymore.
She held her racquet so carefully behind her back, her eyes wide with remorse... I had to disguise my
laugh as coughing.

What's funny? Emmett wanted to know.

"Tell you later," I muttered.

Bella didn't venture into the game again. The coach ignored her and let Mike play alone.

I breezed through the quiz at the end of the hour, and Mrs. Goff let me go early. I was listening intently
to Mike as I walked across the campus. He'd decided to confront Bella about me.

Jessica swears they're dating. Why? Why did he have to pick her?

He didn't recognize the real phenomenon-that she'd picked me.

"So."

"So what?" she wondered.

"You and Cullen, huh?" You and the freak. I guess, if a rich guy is that important to you...

I gritted my teeth at his degrading assumption.

"That's none of your business, Mike."

Defensive. So it's true. Crap. "I don't like it."

"You don't have to," she snapped.

Why can't she see what a circus sideshow he is? Like they all are. The way he stares at her. It gives me
chills to watch. "He looks at you like...like you're something to eat."

I cringed, waiting for her response.

Her face turned bright red, and her lips pressed together like she was holding her breath. Then,
suddenly, a giggle burst through her lips.

Now she's laughing at me. Great.

Mike turned, thoughts sullen, and wandered off to change.

I leaned against the gym wall and tried to compose myself. How could she have laughed at Mike's
accusation-so entirely on target that I began to worry that Forks was becoming too aware ... Why would

she laugh at the suggestion that I could kill her, when she knew that it was entirely true? Where was the
humor in that?

What was wrong with her?

Did she have morbid sense of humor? That didn't fit with my idea of her character, but how could I be
sure? Or maybe my daydream of the giddy angel was true in the one respect, in that she had no sense of
fear at all. Brave-that was one word for it. Others might say stupid, but I knew how bright she was. No
matter what the reason, though, this lack of fear or twisted sense of humor wasn't good for her. Was it
this strange lack that put her in danger so constantly? Maybe she would always need me here...
Just like that, my mood was soaring.

If I could just discipline myself, make myself safe, then perhaps it would be right for me to stay with her.
When she walked through the gym doors, her shoulders were stiff and her lower lip was between her
teeth again-a sign of anxiety. But as soon as her eyes met mine, her rigid shoulders relaxed and a wide
smile spread across her face. It was an oddly peaceful expression. She walked right to my side without
hesitation, only stopping when she was so close that her body heat crashed over me like a tidal wave.

"Hi," she whispered.

The happiness I felt in this moment was, again, without precedent. "Hello," I said, and then-because
with my mood suddenly so light I couldn't resist teasing her-I added, "How was gym?"

Her smile wavered. "Fine."

She was a poor liar.

"Really?" I asked, about to press the issue-I was still concerned about her head; was she in pain?-but
then Mike Newton's thoughts we so loud they broke my concentration.

I hate him. I wish he would die. I hope he drives that shiny car right off a cliff. Why couldn't he just leave
her alone? Stick to his own kind-to the freaks.

"What?" Bella demanded.

My eyes refocused on her face. She looked at Mike's retreating back, and then at me again.

"Newton's getting on my nerves," I admitted.

Her mouth fell open, and her smile disappeared. She must have forgotten that I'd had the power to
watch through her calamitous last hour, or hoped that I hadn't utilized it.

"You weren't listening again?"

"How's your head?"

"You're unbelievable!" she said through her teeth, and then she turned away from me and stalked
furiously toward the parking lot. Her skin flushed dark red-she was embarrassed.

I kept pace with her, hoping that her anger would pass soon. She was usually quick to forgive me.

"You were the one who mentioned how I'd never seen you in Gym," I explained. "It made me curious."

She didn't answer; her eyebrows pulled together.

She came to a sudden halt in the parking lot when she realized that the way to my car was blocked by a
crowd of male students.

I wonder how fast they've gone in this thing...

Look at the SMG shift paddles. I've never seen those outside of a magazine...
Nice side grills...

Sure wish I had sixty thousand dollars laying around...

This was exactly why it was better for Rosalie to only use her car out of town. I wound through the
throng of lustful boys to my car; after a second of hesitation, Bella followed suit.

"Ostentatious," I muttered as she climbed in.

"What kind of car is that?" she wondered.

"An M3."

She frowned. "I don't speak Car and Driver."

"It's a BMW." I rolled my eyes and then focused on backing out without running anyone down. I had to
lock eyes with a few boys that didn't seem willing to move out of my way. A half-second meeting my
gaze seemed to be enough to convince them.

"Are you still angry?" I asked her. Her frown had relaxed.

"Definitely," she answered curtly.

I sighed. Maybe I shouldn't have brought it up. Oh well. I could try to make amends, I supposed. "Will
you forgive me if I apologize?"

She thought about that for a moment. "Maybe...if you mean it," she decided. "And if you promise not to
do it again."

I wasn't going to lie to her, and there was no way I was agreeing to that. Perhaps if I offered her a
different exchange. "How about if I mean it, and I agree to let you drive this Saturday?" I cringed
internally at the thought.

The furrow popped into existence between her eyes as she considered the new bargain. "Deal," she said
after a moment of thought. Now for my apology... I'd never tried to dazzle Bella on purpose before, but
now seemed like a good time. I stared deep into her eyes as I drove away from the school, wondering if I
was doing it right. I used my most persuasive tone.

"Then I'm very sorry I upset you."

Her heartbeat thudded louder than before, and the rhythm was abruptly staccato.

Her eyes widened, looking a little stunned.

I half-smiled. It seemed like I'd gotten it right. Of course, I was having a bit of difficulty looking away
from her eyes, too. Equally dazzled. It was a good thing I had this road memorized.

"And I'll be on your doorstep bright and early Saturday morning," I added, finishing the agreement.

She blinked swiftly, shaking her head as if to clear it. "Um," she said, "it doesn't help with the Charlie
situation if an unexplained Volvo is left in the driveway."

Ah, how little she still knew me. "I wasn't intending to bring a car."

"How-" she started to ask.

I interrupted her. The answer would be hard to explain without a demonstration, and now was hardly
the time. "Don't worry about it. I'll be there, no car."

She put her head on one side, and looked for a second like she was going to press for more, but then she
seemed to change her mind.

"Is it later yet?" she asked, reminding me of our unfinished conversation in the cafeteria today; she'd let
go of one difficult question just to return another that was more unappealing.

"I suppose it is later," I agreed unwillingly.

I parked in front of her house, tensing as I tried to think of how to explain...without making my
monstrous nature too evident, without frightening her again. Or was that wrong? To minimalize my
darkness?

She waited with the same politely interested mask she'd worn at lunch. If I'd been less anxious, her
preposterous calm would have made me laugh.

"And you still want to know why you can't see me hunt?" I asked.

"Well, mostly I was wondering about your reaction," she said.

"Did I frighten you?" I asked, positive that she would deny it.

"No."

I tried not to smile, and failed. "I apologize for scaring you." And then my smile vanished with the
momentary humor. "It was just the very thought of you being there...while we hunted."

"That would be bad?"

The mental picture was too much-Bella, so vulnerable in the empty darkness; myself, out of control... I
tried to banish it from my head. "Extremely."

"Because...?"

I took a deep breath, concentrating for one moment on the burning thirst. Feeling it, managing it,
proving my dominion over it. It would never control me again-I willed that to be true. I would be safe for
her. I stared at the welcome clouds without seeing them, wishing I could believe that my determination
would make any difference if I were hunting when I crossed her scent.

"When we hunt...we give ourselves over to our senses," I told her, thinking through each word before I
spoke it. "Govern less with our minds. Especially our sense of smell. If you were anywhere near me
when I lost control that way..."

I shook my head in agony at the thought of what would-not what could , but what would -surely happen
then.

I listened to the spike in her heartbeat, and then turned, restless, to read her eyes.

Bella's face was composed, her eyes grave. Her mouth was pursed just slightly in what I guessed was
concern. But concern for what? Her own safety? Or my anguish? I continued to stare at her, trying to
translate her ambiguous expression into sure fact.

She gazed back. Her eyes grew wider after a moment, and her pupils dilated, though the light had not
changed.

My breathing accelerated, and suddenly the quiet in the car seemed to be humming, just like in the
darkened biology room this afternoon. The pulsing current raced between us again, and my desire to
touch her was, briefly, stronger even than the demands of my thirst.

The throbbing electricity made it feel like I had a pulse again. My body sang with it. Like I was human.
More than anything in the world, I wanted to feel the heat of her lips against mine. For one second, I
struggled desperately to find the strength, the control, to able to put my mouth so close to her skin...
She sucked in a ragged breath, and only then did I realize that when I had started breathing faster, she
had stopped breathing altogether.

I closed my eyes, trying to break the connection between us.

No more mistakes.

Bella's existence was tied to a thousand delicately balanced chemical processes, all so easily disrupted.
The rhythmic expansion of her lungs, the flow of oxygen, was life or death to her. The fluttering cadence
of her fragile heart could be stopped by so many stupid accidents or illnesses or...by me.

I did not believe that any member of my family would hesitate if he or she were offered a chance back-if
he or she could trade immortality for mortality again. Any one of us would stand in fire for it. Burn for as
many days or centuries as were necessary.

Most of our kind prized immortality above anything else. There were even humans who craved this, who
searched in dark places for those who could give them the blackest of gifts...

Not us. Not my family. We would trade anything to be human. But none of us had ever been as
desperate for a way back as I was now.

I stared at the microscopic pits and flaws in the windshield, like there was some solution hidden in the
glass. The electricity had not faded, and I had to concentrate to keep my hands on the wheel.

My right hand began to sting without pain again, from when I'd touched her before.

"Bella, I think you should go inside now."

She obeyed at once, without comment, getting out of the car and shutting the door behind herself. Did
she feel the potential for disaster as clearly as I did?

Did it hurt her to leave, as it hurt me to let her go? The only solace was that I would see her soon.
Sooner than she would see me. I smiled at that, then rolled the window down and leaned across to
speak to her one more time-it was safer now, with the heat of her body outside the car.
She turned to see what I wanted, curious.
Still curious, though she'd asked me so many questions today. My own curiosity was entirely unsatisfied;
answering her questions today had only revealed my secrets-I'd gotten little from her but my own

conjectures. That wasn't fair.

"Oh, Bella?"

"Yes?"

"Tomorrow it's my turn."

Her forehead puckered. "Your turn to what?"

"Ask the questions." Tomorrow, when we were in a safer place, surrounded by witnesses, I would get
my own answers. I grinned at the thought, and then I turned away because she made no move to leave.
Even with her outside of the car, the echo of the electricity zinged in the air. I wanted to get out, too, to
walk her to her door as an excuse to stay beside her...

No more mistakes. I hit the gas, and then sighed as she disappeared behind me. It seemed like I was
always running toward Bella or running away from her, never staying in place. I would have to find some
way to hold my ground if we were ever going to have any peace.

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